I know this to be true as well. For me (and for folks I work with) it's the gift of sensitivity that creates the heaviness and depression. We carry too much without realizing it - out of control healers taking on and holding energy.

It's worthwhile to be sober (38 years for me). At least you can remember what you've done. I don't miss blacking out and feeling afraid.

Being in Nature helps. Sitting at the base of a tree is my new instant healing fix - I let its roots and gravity ground my body and clear my energy field. And a good medical intuitive or energy worker does more good than therapy or western medicine.

Your writing is beautiful. I hope it brings you healing.