It's great to honor how you synch with nature. You prefer the slowing down and releasing, the start to quieter energy - makes sense! Years ago fall made me fear the onset of depressing gray winter months in California. Now I welcome them, and dread the dry hot smoky days of summer. Like the climate and weather, I believe we change with the seasons of our life. Depression is a sign of a finely tuned sensitivity gone awry, in my opinion (and experience) May you find the blessing in your "curse. "