This, to me, is the gift of psychic awareness. Mine was born out of trauma. Most of my clients are highly intuitive and the most psychic of them endured childhood trauma. The joy in the gift comes from being able to connect with something larger than oneself. And sometimes it's just a nice party trick to read someone and blow their mind.
You're fortunate to know enough to take care of yourself in this way. So many don't - they are often the ones suffering from addiction and depression/anxiety.